Two Years Post Break Up Post!

thank god for the break up

Oh well I had forgotten about this blog I made 2 years ago after ending my first relationship. Breaking up was awful, I thought I’d never make it. Haha but I did and it was the best decision. This guy tried contacting me this year. He is basically a mess right now. He tried modelling, small time business, everything but he is jobless at 28 ,ouch! Yes, he’s never had a job. The same guy who seemed amazingly attractive while in college seems like just a pretty boy now. I feel really bad for him.

3rd week of break up: Went out with a new guy. Felt awesome!

Felt so awkward at first. I was supposed to meet him yesterday but was too confused as it felt so wrong. But I gave it a try!

And i’m back feeling truly awesome. I’ve realized that my ex is not the best guy ever. He’s actually the worst.

So here it is, my post break up count ends and i’m not gonna look back.

Day 20 of break up: He has a new girlfriend. It hurts so bad.

I was happy. So happy that I felt I should just let my ex know! I texted him and was being all cool. Telling him about where i’ve been recently, discussing the movies i’ve seen lately. He seemed disinterested and that kind of triggered my emotional side. So i messaged him something like i dont know why but i am feeling a bit low.

And he texted me please don’t irritate me or i’ll have to block you.

I replied that was so rude and he said sorry. I replied you always make me cry by being so heartless.

He then dropped the bomb. See, i have a girlfriend now and i dont think we should be in contact like this.

My eyes filled up, felt like someone punched me in the chest. Like someone is pulling my intestines out of my mouth. Just wanted to disappear at that moment.

I sent him several texts just expressing my disbelief and messaged him how could he move on so quickly and that i feel like an idiot as i still cant forget him.

Bad move. He blocked me.

Yes, he was, he is and always will be i guess so cruel.

How can anyone move on in two weeks or so? And i’m assuming he was in contact with her even before we broke up. He has cheated before but this time i guess he dumped me for her.

He told me he wants to be with friends and family and doesnt want a relationship. He doesnt have a job and said he wants to focus on that aspect of his life and get a job by end of this year. So i was hurt but fine with it.

But it was a big fat stinky lie. As he still doesnt have a job, still sitting at home doing nothing but the only thing that has changed in his life is his girlfriend.

I’ve been replaced, no, kicked out out from his life. I have my exams in january and i’m in no state to study or even socialize right now.

How could he be happy with someone while I am suffering here everyday. He probably started dating her even before we broke and must be fucking her while i am wiping my tears. The emotions i am going through right now are unbearable.

This news has hurt me more than the break up itself. I thought we could be friends as we both were mature adults who wanted to enjoy singlehood. But nope! I was totally wrong he just wanted some new girl in his life.

I am nothing to him.

Day 12 of break up: I lose. I fall to his feet.

I cry the moment i get up in the morning. I somehow manage to go out with a friend but life just seems so much more stressful and dark without him.

He sucked as a boyfriend. Never wanted to take me out or spend time with me. Cheated on me, lied to me, ignored me when i was sick but still my stupid female mind loved him and i guess still does.

I texted him ‘i am sorry plz give me a last chance’ ‘plz call me wenvr ur free’ ‘u der’ n other such pathetic desperate messages.

He hasnt responded to any of the above messages. It hurts like hell. Why cant he just love me back? Am i so bad? Is it because i am fat? Short?

I keep thinking its my fault. I just have lost all hope that i can ever be happy without him.

I just want him back.

Day 10 of break up – Gloomy and Helpless

I messaged him. I messaged his younger brother. Nothing seems worth doing. My exams in two weeks but i cant even look at books right now. Every little thing reminds me of him. He seems to be the best i could ever have. I drift away day dreaming about him at random times during the day.


Feel terribly lonely and sad when alone no matter how happy i was when with friends.

Talking to other guys seems disgusting and im comparing every guy with him only to conclude that he was the best.

He has moved on and most probably found someone else. His brother told me that he seems very happy and is mostly out with his friends.

He knows I am miserable right now and all i want in this world is to be with him, near him, just like the good old days but he just doesn’t care now. We are back to being strangers.

Signs that a guy is a dickhead who’s going to cheat on you very soon

Well if you’re reading this chances are high that you very well know he’s dickhead but let me elaborate the signs just for your confirmation.

1. He says ‘i love you/i miss you/ i need you/i wanna marry you’ too soon. No one falls in love in two weeks or even two months. My ex told me he cant live without me and wants to spend his life with me a month into our relationship only to cheat a month later.

2. He lies about little things. He told me he’s a vegetarian when he ate meat every day just because i was a vegetarian. He pretended to a vegetarian for god knows how many months. He said he lied to impress me. But if a guy pretends to be something else thats definitely a red flag for psycho and cheater.

3. He has too many female friends. They’re everywhere. Messaging him on facebook, on his phone, he’s playing online games with them and so on. You say its weird and he blames you for being so narrow minded and suspicious. My ex kept chatting to this girl online said she was his close school buddy. Ended up a random online chick who he met when i was out of town.

4. He disappears for days or even weeks. He says his uncle died or cat went missing or that he lost his phone. Excuses way too dramatic to believe. But the female brain is dumbed down in love and tends to believe even such excuses.

5. With time he grows apart. A guy really in love with grow closer to you as time passes but this guy will slowly cut you off from his life. He will become more and more busy with time. Will prefer playing games online rather than helping you when you’re sick. He will lie that he is working when he’s actually just checking out girls at some bar with his friends. He will be least interested in calling you and you will be the one making the calls. He will always make excuses when you make plans to go out.

6. He will finally successfully cut you off from his life. If he’s a shameless jerk with no balls he’ll end up cheating on you without letting you know that he is no more interested in you. He may pretend to be guilty only to blame you by saying that the relationship was boring/dull/stressful/long distance or any other excuse which shifts the blame.

So if you’re dating a guy who’s showing any of the above signs just dump his ass and move on before its too late and he crushes your heart. This guy isnt the type who can be changed into a better man. He’ll only turn you into a paranoid insecure woman.

You get the point. Move on.

He says he faked the relationship to keep me happy and doesnt love me at all

October: I broke with him as i felt he didnt care for me anymore and was only hurting me everyday by his lack of interest.

November: I told him that the break up is really affecting my academics and that i’m feeling very depressed and he agreed to get back together.

He was sweet, adorable for a month till my exams got over. We made so many plans for the vacation in december.

Two days after my exams, that is on 5th december, he calls me and says he was just faking the relationship as he didnt want my exams to get affected and that every single thing he said was a lie.

We had made big plans to meet on 7th and we had discussed each day what we’d do. He said that he made the plan only to make me happy and doesnt intend to meet me.

I couldnt stop crying. It felt like a nightmare. To shocking to be true!

He ended the call saying not to contact him again as he was only doing this to help me study and get over depression and that he has no feelings for me and cannot be in a relationship with me.

But I was shattered by the fact that he could lie everyday for a month.

Thats day 0 of my new break up.

Day 7 of break up: i messaged him and messed with my head

I sent him this picture on whatsapp


I really dont know why! May be in an effort to his melt his heart. He unfriended me on facebook yesterday and i was really upset since morning. Couldnt stop thinking about him. Really had to control all urges to call him.

But finally lost at 3pm and sent him this pic on whatsapp. May be coz i really didnt have any words to say. When we were together we always shared pics of cute cats and laughed together and i really miss such little things.

Anyway, he replied:
I have moved on
Plz don’t reply

To which i replied:
Kk so hav i. Just wantd to share d pic.. Neway wont hencforth
Bye tc

He replied:
Bye tc

Really heart breaking but i have no option but to move on.

Day 6 – feeling low low low

Went out for movie with friends. After that my friends encouraged me to forget him and start dating again.

Its all fine when i’m with my two best friends. But the moment i’m alone in my room, i get this deep sinking feeling that i have failed in life. That i’m the ugliest, dumbest person on earth. I feel that its all my fault that every single relationship of mine has failed while couples around me have lasted for 4-5 years and still going strong.

Am i the weak link? The person in the relationship who always gives up, who is never satisfied, who always whines?

I have made a promise to myself that i wont jump from one relationship to other. That i wont be a fool in love

Day 5 post break up – miserable

Its just 7pm now and already feeling low for no particular reason. Feeling disinterested in routine activities and feel like laying on bed all day.

Checked his profile couple of times. I don’t wanna be the loser ex who cries and pleads on the phone. I’ve been there, done that and its not a pretty experience! Guys are insensitive creatures and can get immense pleasure and an ego boost when a girl cries for them.

So i don’t want that to happen this time around. Just hoping that this change of mood is due to PMS and nothing else.

He won’t call i know very well as he has never ever really loved me. He was never really attached to me to miss me.